i just woke up dead
a memoir
by Justin Donner
mental illness
sex drugs alcohol
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recalling nights barely remembered required research
treatment worksheets
stories from journals
countless drafts
writings that eventually became the rough draft
written after returning from canada at 19 years old after having sex with a woman in a bathroom stall at a club (thought to be "cool") led to feelings of intense panic and awareness that behavior was spiraling
written by a woman who half-jokingly used "jesus" as a nickname and would arrange threesomes with other women... how a god-complex and narcissism mature
organizing years of events to ensure a cohesive tale of addiction
hundreds of handwritten pages and gallons of coffee
utilizing college writing and study skills to keep the story flowing
meticulous organization is what makes ijwd so special
conversation notes and quotes from a patient who suffered from a multitude of emotional problems being treated for schizophrenia
when the story began - bound with zip-ties because staples or paperclips were not allowed
details - reading - taking notes -returning to that place of dispair
...this is what separate ijwd from every other addiction memoir
conversations with fellow psych ward patients were recorded using loose pages and small dull pencils
as cathartic as the process was, continue reading to view documents from the psych ward where a broken spirit and empty soul started to heal while writing what became ijwd